I know I should be happy now… I know I should enjoy this period… I know I must be confident enough to handle this situation. I’ve been waiting for a long time for this… A very long time…
Yet, I’m uncertain… I have doubts… I doubt if I could even handle it entirely. 5 years in the making since that time that I had decided to pursue this career. Filled with confidence and proud of what I have learned, I told myself that I could do all those things I have thinking in those idle moments.
I’m writing this article in order for me to have a medium wherein I could excrete my self-doubt and my gradual whining and grinding of my teeth Please bring back to me my confidence, give me back the zeal I once had.